Hey Olexa, first off — it’s totally okay to feel like that. A lot of people go through similar thoughts, and you’re not weird or alone for asking this.
When I started feeling that way a couple years ago, what really helped me was this website: https://spectrum-id.com/. They have a test that was created by professionals to help people figure out how they feel about their gender. It’s not about labeling yourself or making any big decisions — it just gives you a chance to sort through some of those feelings in a structured way.
They also have other helpful tests — on gender identity, gender roles, dysphoria, and even one on being transgender. I found doing a few of them gave me a lot to think about, without pressure.
Plus, the site isn’t just tests. There are a bunch of articles that explain different gender topics in a really straightforward way. Honestly, I wish I had found it earlier when I was trying to make sense of everything. It's especially helpful for teens who feel stuck or unsure.